{"id":10255,"date":"2018-03-03T17:44:50","date_gmt":"2018-03-04T01:44:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/?page_id=10255"},"modified":"2018-03-31T17:36:53","modified_gmt":"2018-04-01T00:36:53","slug":"the-reason","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/the-generals-office\/bj-jones\/csi-miami\/the-reason\/","title":{"rendered":"The Reason"},"content":{"rendered":"

Title<\/strong>: The Reason
\nAuthor<\/strong>: Bj Jones
\nRating<\/strong>: FRT-13
\nSummary<\/strong>: Horatio tells Speed he\u2019s the reason<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Speed opened the front door and stared in shock then turned cold. \u201cYou have a nerve.\u201d<\/p>\n

Horatio slipped off his sunglasses and looked at his lover, more like ex-lover. He had screwed up big time. \u201cCan we talk?\u201d<\/p>\n

The redhead wondered if he would even get through the front door. He had seriously hurt the younger man and deserved to have the door slammed in his face.<\/p>\n

Speed sighed, \u201cMake it quick, I\u2019m having dinner with Alexx later.\u201d<\/p>\n

Subtle hint, one wrong move and Horatio would have momma on his doorstep. Horatio nodded not surprised he wasn\u2019t allowed in the apartment. The redhead figured the best thing to do was get straight to the point. There was no use in giving false statements or stupid excuses.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m not a perfect person.\u201d Horatio looked at his lover. \u201cThere\u2019s many things I wish I didn\u2019t do, but I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou didn\u2019t mean to cheat on me?\u201d Speed demanded, his voice hard with anger.<\/p>\n

Horatio closed his eyes, he could feel the pain he caused Speed. One night, too many drinks, and a mistake that was ripping his life apart. He should have never been at that bar; he should have never even acknowledged the advances.<\/p>\n

\u201cI have to say before I go, that I just want you to know.\u201d The redhead looked into the pain filled brown eyes. \u201cI\u2019ve found a reason for me to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDon\u2019t you think it\u2019s a little late?\u201d he asked. \u201cI thought we had forever. I told you things I told no one. \u201c<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m sorry that I hurt you, it\u2019s something I must live with everyday.\u201d Horatio closed his eyes. The look in Speed\u2019s eyes when he told him what happened. The shock and then the hurt as the words sunk in.<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you know how hard it is to be at work and know?\u201d Speed wiped a tear away. \u201cTo know you slept with her.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAll the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away.\u201d The older man reached up to wipe away Speed\u2019s tear. \u201cBe the one who catches all your tears.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou promised me,\u201d Speed choked.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m not a perfect person, there’s many things I wish I didn’t do.\u201d Horatio let his own tears fall. \u201cBut I found a reason that I have to start anew, change who I used to be, and then I realized the reason was you.\u201d Horatio let his own tears fall.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy should I even allow you through the front door let alone a new start?\u201d the brunette demanded.<\/p>\n

\u201cBecause I\u2019ve found a reason to show a side of me you didn\u2019t know; a reason for all that I do and that reason is you.\u201d Horatio ran a hand through his hair. \u201cI thought I had to be the strong one, be there for everyone, not show any weakness. And that lead me to hiding my biggest fear, and that night it came to the fore.\u201d<\/p>\n

Speed looked into Horatio\u2019s blue. \u201cWhat fear?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThat you would leave. Everyone I have ever loved has left me. Either because of my job, my over protectiveness, or they just got tired of dealing with me.\u201d He opened up for the first time in his life, showing his darkest fears. \u201cWhen we fought that night I convinced myself it was over, that you would leave like the rest.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd Yelina?\u201d the young man asked.<\/p>\n

\u201cA stupid mistake that I regret more than anything in my life. One too many drinks and some soft comforting words that meant nothing and\u2026\u201d Horatio choked. \u201cI destroyed the best thing in my life.”<\/p>\n

Speed searched for something in Horatio\u2019s eyes. The older man dropped all his shields and let the younger man see everything, his regret, his fears, the love he had for him, everything. He laid his soul bare.<\/p>\n

Speed choked back a sob, then grabbed the older man\u2019s shirt and pulled him into a hard demanding kiss. Horatio slipped his arms around the slim waist and held him close, relishing in the feel of Speed\u2019s body in his arms.<\/p>\n

The brunette pulled back. \u201cIt\u2019s not going to be easy. A lot of trust has been lost.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI know.\u201d Horatio cupped the scruffy cheek. \u201cI just want to spend the rest of my life proving to you how much I love you, and showing you that you are my reason for living.\u201d<\/p>\n

The younger man smiled as he pulled Horatio into the apartment. \u201cI love you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Horatio closed his eyes, letting the words wash over him. A sob shook his body. Speed held him close, running his hands up and down the strong back giving comfort, soft words of comfort whispered in his ear. Horatio held him close. \u201cGod, I\u2019m so sorry\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI know, and so am I\u2026\u201d Speed covered the redhead\u2019s mouth with his finger. \u201cI should have come to you that night. Settled things between us, instead of letting it simmer. I retreated into myself when things go wrong and that led us to a bad situation.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI hurt you\u2026\u201d Horatio whispered.<\/p>\n

Speed kissed him long and deep. \u201cYou\u2019re here now.\u201d<\/p>\n

The two held each other close, letting go of the past and moving on to the future.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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