{"id":10248,"date":"2018-03-03T17:14:37","date_gmt":"2018-03-04T01:14:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/?page_id=10248"},"modified":"2018-03-31T17:36:59","modified_gmt":"2018-04-01T00:36:59","slug":"nothing-lasts-forever","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/the-generals-office\/bj-jones\/csi-miami\/nothing-lasts-forever\/","title":{"rendered":"Nothing Lasts Forever"},"content":{"rendered":"

Title<\/strong>: Nothing Lasts Forever
\nAuthor<\/strong>: Bj Jones
\nRating<\/strong>: FRT
\nSummary<\/strong>: It was a beautiful goodbye\u2026<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Speed looked over the banquet hall, his eyes instantly landing on the bright red hair of his boss. He closed his eyes and looked away. It still hurt, even after six months apart, seeing him with someone else\u2026<\/p>\n

Their relationship was sudden and unexpected. In hindsight it was too fast, too much need behind it. Speed had showed up at his door after that<\/strong> day. The humiliation of Dispo day had sent him into his boss\u2019s arms.<\/p>\n

They were together for four months. Looking back it was the best four months of his life. But the fear of being found out. Fear of moving too fast. They both backed out, ending the relationship.<\/p>\n

Speed turned back to his date and gave her a soft smile. She was nice, and in time he knew he could care deeply for her. But there were times, moments in the darkness when he thought back and wondered.<\/p>\n

Back to that one moment. A quiet night. A walk along the beach. That perfect setting \u2013 for that beautiful goodbye.<\/p>\n

Fed up with my destiny
\n<\/em>And this place of no return <\/em>
\nThink I’ll take another day <\/em>
\nAnd slowly watch it burn <\/em>
\nIt doesn’t really matter how the time goes by<\/em>
\nCause I still remember you and I <\/em>
\nAnd that beautiful goodbye <\/em><\/p>\n

Horatio nodded to his date and gave her hand a squeeze as she left to go to the bar. He leaned back, instantly focusing on Speed. The young man was talking softly to his date, the two laughing lightly.<\/p>\n

He thought back to six months ago, when he was the recipient of that small precious laugh. He\u2019d had in his arms the most precious gift and had watched it walk away.<\/p>\n

Rumors had started up about them. He had heard threats against the younger man, so Horatio had decided to put some distance between them. In the end, Speed\u2019s own fears surfaced and the two parted.<\/p>\n

He had taken him to a secluded section of the beach; they had talked softly, both agreeing that it was for the best, that their relationship wasn\u2019t meant to last. It was one of the easiest breakups he had ever experienced. He had reached over and taken Speed\u2019s mouth in one last kiss, then whispered goodbye. Speed had simply turned and walked away.<\/p>\n

Sometimes he wondered if Speed thought of him. Of that night. If he looked up at the stars and wondered and remembered that beautiful goodbye.<\/p>\n

In these days of no regrets <\/em>
\nI keep mine to myself <\/em>
\nAnd all the things we never said <\/em>
\nI can say for someone else<\/em>
\nCause nothing lasts forever, but we always try <\/em>
\nAnd I just can’t help but wonder why <\/em>
\nWe let it pass us by <\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cAre you coming over?\u201d<\/p>\n

Speed looked over at his girlfriend. \u201cI can, if you want me to.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cTim,\u201d she cupped his cheek. \u201cYou\u2019re always welcome.\u201d<\/p>\n

He nodded. \u201cThere is something I have to pick up, and then I\u2019ll come over.\u201d<\/p>\n

She leaned up and kissed him softly. \u201cI\u2019ll be waiting.\u201d She gave him a saucy grin and stepped into the cab. Speed gave her a wave and watched the cab drive away.<\/p>\n

He signaled for another cab. As the cab pulled up he caught a glimpse of Horatio and his date. She looked beautiful on his arm, everyone had thought so. Speed opened the door and just as he was going to slide in, he caught Horatio\u2019s eyes. He gasped. The two were locked onto each other, their eyes not leaving the other.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

\u201cHoratio?\u201d<\/p>\n

Speed shook his head, breaking the spell. He quickly stepped into the cab and didn\u2019t look back. His heart was pounding. The look in those deep blue eyes\u2026 Speed laid his head back; all he could think of was that night on the beach. Maybe\u2026things weren\u2019t as over as he thought.<\/p>\n

When I see you now <\/em>
\nI wonder how <\/em>
\nI could’ve watched you walk away <\/em>
\nIf I let you down <\/em>
\nPlease forgive me now <\/em>
\nFor that beautiful goodbye <\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cWhat\u2019s wrong?\u201d<\/p>\n

Horatio turned towards his companion. \u201cNothing, go on home. I\u2019ll talk with you later.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYou\u2019re not coming over?\u201d She laid a gentle hand on his arm. \u201cI can fix dessert.\u201d<\/p>\n

He shook his head. \u201cCourt in the morning and I have to prepare for it. I\u2019ll call you tomorrow.\u201d He gave her a quick kiss and helped her into the cab.<\/p>\n

\u201cHoratio\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cGoodnight,\u201d he smiled and closed the door.<\/p>\n

Horatio moved to the Hummer. He got behind the wheel and sighed. He knew now that that moment, that goodbye was a mistake. He started the car up and headed home. What he didn\u2019t know, was what he could do about it now. But then, just maybe\u2026<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Speed let the throttle go and let the beast out of the Ducati. He had been driving through the streets of Miami for over an hour. He wasn\u2019t sure if he was running from his demons or towards them. All he knew was that he needed to clear his head, and so just took off on his bike, letting the wind whip through his hair.<\/p>\n

He came to a stop at a red light. He looked around and realized he had hit his crossroads.<\/p>\n

If he turned right, it would lead him back into town to her.<\/p>\n

If he turned left, it would lead him to the beach to him.<\/p>\n

He straddled the roaring bike, his heart hammering in his chest. He flicked on his blinker and made the decision.<\/p>\n

Baby, what can I do?<\/em>
\nTo get through to you<\/em>
\nAnd sometimes I cry<\/em>
\nIt\u2019s a fool\u2019s lullaby<\/em>
\nSometimes I cry<\/em>
\nIt\u2019s just a fool\u2019s lullaby<\/em><\/p>\n

Horatio looked at himself in the mirror and wondered what a fool he had been to let Speed walk away. He wiped the tears from his cheeks and splashed water on his face. He had a decision to make. He could walk out this door and go to Speed\u2019s loft or\u2026<\/p>\n

But what if he wasn\u2019t home?<\/p>\n

What if he was at her house?<\/p>\n

What if she was there?<\/p>\n

What if he was waiting for him?<\/p>\n

A decision made, he grabbed his keys and opened the door, stopping short. Speed was standing on his doorstep.<\/p>\n

Speed looked up, startled to see the door ripped open before he knocked. Horatio stared at him in shock. He had come all this way, there was no turning back. Speed pushed the redhead back into the house, closed the door and pulled him into his arms, taking his mouth in a hard, passionate kiss.<\/p>\n

Horatio moaned at the contact, his hands instantly wrapping around the thin waist, pulling Speed close. The two kissed for what seemed like hours. Tasting and relearning each other. This is where they belonged, had always belonged.<\/p>\n

Speed pulled back, his lips swollen, eyes filled with love. He cupped Horatio\u2019s cheek and gave him a small smile. \u201cHi.\u201d<\/p>\n

It was the most beautiful hello Horatio had ever heard.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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