{"id":10244,"date":"2018-03-03T17:01:23","date_gmt":"2018-03-04T01:01:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/?page_id=10244"},"modified":"2018-03-31T17:37:02","modified_gmt":"2018-04-01T00:37:02","slug":"knockin-on-heavens-door","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/the-generals-office\/bj-jones\/csi-miami\/knockin-on-heavens-door\/","title":{"rendered":"Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door"},"content":{"rendered":"

Title<\/strong>: Knockin On Heaven’s Door
\nAuthor<\/strong>: Bj Jones
\nRating<\/strong>: FRM
\nSummary<\/strong>: Speed watches as his life fades away<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

I stood near by as I watched Horatio pleading for me to stay. How could I tell him that this was for the best? I have a dark past. A past I don\u2019t talk about. But one that had crept back into my life and swallowed me whole and threatened him.<\/p>\n

The day I lost Robert was the day my life ended. I had tried to join him, but was \u2018saved\u2019. Then promptly thrown out of the house for being a pervert and a coward for taking the easy way out.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m actually surprised I lived through that year. God really does protect drunks and fools. Robert\u2019s uncle saved me. He showed me that Robert wouldn\u2019t want me to throw my life away. With his help I cleaned up, went back to school, and become a CSI.<\/p>\n

Then I met Horatio.<\/p>\n

Mama, take this badge off of me
\nI can’t use it anymore.
\nIt’s gettin’ dark, too dark for me to see
\nI feel like I’m knockin’ on heaven’s door.<\/em><\/p>\n

I fell in love the moment I laid eyes on him. I knew I didn’t have a chance, so I buried my emotions and was content with his friendship. I watched from afar as he pined away for Yelina. I really had no idea why she chose that ass over a man like Horatio.<\/p>\n

Then the past came back.<\/p>\n

How Stetler found out about what happened in New York, I don\u2019t know, but he was determined to use it against Horatio. Use my fucked up past to hurt the man I love. I wouldn\u2019t allow it. There was only one way out for me.<\/p>\n

Mama, put my guns in the ground
\nI can’t shoot them anymore.
\nThat long black cloud is comin’ down
\nI feel like I’m knockin’ on heaven’s door.<\/em><\/p>\n

It was hard to watch Alexx perform my autopsy. I knew this was hurting her. She was the only woman I ever loved. She treated me as if I were her own son. That meant more to me, than she\u2019ll ever know.<\/p>\n

I wanted nothing more than to hold her and tell her it was all right. My pain was finally gone; I was in a better place. I wanted her to take care of the team for me. It was going to hurt them, but it was for the best.<\/p>\n

As I turned to leave I saw Horatio walk into the autopsy room. He leaned over my prone body and smoothed back that unruly hair of mine. \u201cI should have told you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Told me what? I stopped and watched.<\/p>\n

\u201cI love you.\u201d He leaned down and kissed my cold forehead. \u201cI knew Speed.\u201d Horatio looked upwards, tears streaking down his face. \u201cStetler confronted me. He enjoyed telling me everything, but I already knew. I didn\u2019t care. I told him to take his file and shove it up his ass. \u201d<\/p>\n

I could only stare in shock. My heart shattering \u2013 he knew and\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cI should have come to you,\u201d he whispered. \u201cI should have realized you would do anything to protect the lab and my reputation \u2013 even by destroying your own. You\u2019re not careless or lazy. That gun was dirty for a reason. And with my silence I might as well have pulled the trigger.\u201d<\/p>\n

He turned and stared right at me. \u201cI\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s okay.\u201d I smiled, turned and walked away.<\/p>\n

Knock, knock, knockin’ on heaven’s door
\nKnock, knock, knockin’ on heaven’s door
\nKnock, knock, knockin’ on heaven’s door
\nKnock, knock, knockin’ on heaven’s door<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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