{"id":10234,"date":"2018-03-03T16:24:19","date_gmt":"2018-03-04T00:24:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/?page_id=10234"},"modified":"2018-03-03T20:50:42","modified_gmt":"2018-03-04T04:50:42","slug":"dealer-addict","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.sylumclan.com\/sylumblog\/the-generals-office\/bj-jones\/csi-miami\/dealer-addict\/","title":{"rendered":"Dealer & Addict"},"content":{"rendered":"

Title<\/strong>: Dealer
\nAuthor<\/strong>: Bj Jones
\nRating<\/strong>: PG
\nSummary<\/strong>: Speed talks about dealing out addictions
\nAuthors Note<\/strong>: My very first slash fiction<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve faced my share of demons, and I\u2019ve battled my share of addictions. So I admit it was quite a surprise to find myself in this role. I of all people understand its addictive powers, understood the hell it can put you through. How once you\u2019re snared, it grabs hold and sinks its teeth into you. Like I said, I\u2019ve tasted the power addiction can have over you, I conquered it through hard work and perseverance, and I might add pure unadulterated luck.<\/p>\n

So, yes, it came as a complete shock to the system that I now have become the dealer, supplying the addiction, snaring my target and not letting go. Taking advantage of a shown weakness, milking it, using it, and manipulating it to my advantage.<\/p>\n

I first offered it as a one-time solution. No strings, no commitments, just a way to forget that sweet angel, taken by the evils man. I supplied what he needed, and then left him cold in the morning. Cruel? Yes. Necessary? Yes. When you\u2019re leading a man down the path of addiction you need to be. Isn\u2019t that the point, making sure they come back for more?<\/p>\n

It was a slow process; the man I was snaring was one of the strongest men I know. He isn\u2019t easily persuaded to indulge in weaknesses. He\u2019s seen what addiction can do to a person, a family, and a community. Hell, he\u2019s seen his own family torn apart, by addiction. We watch as sweet Calleigh battles her father\u2019s addiction daily. So to make this man fall, was not an easy task. No one said it would be easy. I\u2019ve always loved a good challenge; it makes the thrill of victory so much sweeter.<\/p>\n

I used our jobs as my advantage. There is always a horrendous case, another innocent victim taken before they had a chance to live. A bombing, a family killed because an employee had a grudge. I watched through the glass walls we work in, as he processed the five-year-old\u2019s clothes. He looked up at me, and I saw the need in his eyes. I gave him what he needed, and once again left him cold in the morning.<\/p>\n

I know your thinking I\u2019m cruel, but aren’t all dealers cruel? We don\u2019t care why you\u2019re at our door, we just care that you\u2019re there. He soon sought me out, and it wasn\u2019t after a tough case. He caught me in the elevator, those glasses firmly in place. As the doors closed I slipped them off, and I could see the need in his eyes. I had finally snared him.<\/p>\n

As I curl up next to him on the verge of sleep I could feel his fingers smooth my hair away from my face. I murmur softly, as he pulls me closer to him, my head resting on his chest, snuggling closer to him. What he doesn\u2019t realize, and what I finally admitted to myself in this simple moment, that all this time, it wasn\u2019t I who was supplying the addiction. It was my own addiction to him, my obsession and my need, which caused me to snare him with my dealings.<\/p>\n

I, Timothy \u201cSpeed\u201d Speedle, am addicted to one Horatio Caine. And I have no intention of letting him out of my clutches.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Title:<\/strong> Addict
\nAuthor:<\/strong> Bj Jones
\nRating:<\/strong> PG
\nSummary:<\/strong> Horatio talks about his addiction
\nAuthors Note<\/strong>: My very first slash fiction<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve seen the destruction an addictive substance can cause. A life taken, a family destroyed, a community torn apart. I\u2019ve processed crime scenes, the consequences due to drugs: the overdoses, the shootings, and the deals gone bad. I\u2019ve had the unpleasant experience of telling families that a drunk driver had killed a loved one. I\u2019ve watched co-workers battle the demons of addiction, easily sliding into an addiction do to the horrors of the job.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve dedicated my life to protecting those who can\u2019t protect themselves to speak for the victims caused by various forms of substance abuse. I\u2019ve seen it all. I watched my brother fight against it, fall for it, and then die because of it. I\u2019ve watched Calleigh pull her father time after time out of the local bars, drunk and dishonored.<\/p>\n

If I were honest with myself I would admit that I never understood how one could get so entangled into an addiction. In my eyes, one just had to be strong enough to say no and stop. Little did I know how strong an addiction could be?<\/p>\n

It can take over your life in a second. It only takes one taste, and it snares you into it’s addictive powers. And that\u2019s how I found myself in this predicament. I couldn\u2019t get enough; it was affecting my job, my life.<\/p>\n

It was sudden, unexpected. A disturbing case, a child\u2019s death is always difficult. An offer made, a way to forget the face of a beautiful six-year-old angel taken before her time. I told myself it would only be this one time, this one indulgence.<\/p>\n

But there is always another difficult case, another life cut short. I found myself seeking out, looking to forget. Then as times went by, it became the priority. This addiction, this need, consumes me, controls me, and now I understand when an addict tells you – it\u2019s the drug that\u2019s in control, not you, no matter what you tell yourself.<\/p>\n

As I lay here, in the dark I\u2019ve come to a starting conclusion. I\u2019m finally truthful with myself I\u2019m addicted to Speed, to him. I look over to the sleeping form next to me. Peaceful in sleep, the stress of the job wiped away. The shadow of a beard always present, no matter the time of day. I brush my hand along his forehead moving the dark tussled hair out of his face. He shifts closer to the touch, murmuring softly. I pull him closer to me, kissing his head softly as it settles onto my chest.<\/p>\n

I, Horatio Caine, am addicted to one Timothy \u201cSpeed\u201d Speedle and I have no intention of removing myself from his clutches.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Title: Dealer Author: Bj Jones Rating: PG Summary: Speed talks about dealing out addictions Authors Note: My very first slash fiction *** I\u2019ve faced my share of demons, and I\u2019ve battled my share of addictions. So I admit it was quite a surprise to find myself in this role. 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